A bunch of random thoughts....

* I can't cope.

* I'm not good at people or communication. I don't even like showing a grin for social purposes or photographs, why do I always engage myself in those fields that involve lots of strangers and lots of empty smiles?

* I'm feeling cold... very cold. I feel the chill from the very depth of heart and I can't shake away the feeling.

* Can people stop asking me grammar problems or how to learn English? Do they know that I've got a life especially when I'm not a teacher? Do they know that they have to learn to be independent? And do they know that I'm not even good at that?

* I hate myself when I have to pretend Ms. Nice. I hate myself more when I feel guilty if I don't help. I understand that sense of helplessness. I just hope others won't feel the same.

* I'm not feeling well.

* I feel shitty.

* And helpless.

* Stop telling me to be positive! Those who are always positive are just being indifferent.

* I can't cope. That's too much.